Birth Experience

Reading through Farrah's recent labour experience sure brings back so much memories... painful memories for me...  My labour experience was pretty normal; I think. What was painful was the experience after everything was settled.. when I was resting, sleeping. Mia was delivered at about 9pm. Everything went pretty smooth. By 10pm, I was already back in my room, breastfeeding Mia.

Then I was woken up by an excruciating pain.. So painful that I couldn't even cry.. It felt like I was entering the doors of hell!

The throbbing pain near my epi didn't stop for a long time. Believe it or not, it was more painful compared to the last stretch of contractions! I cried non-stop for 2 hour. DH & MIL didn't know what to do. The Nurse came in and gave me some pain medication. It helped for a little bit. I went back to sleep. The nurse couldn' t explain what was wrong; at first we thought it was my haemorrhoid, so she applied some cream. But the pain didn't stop. Then we thought it was the stitches, but when she checked it was done perfectly. Soon after, the excruciating pain came back. Each throbbing pain felt like I was being run over by a lorry again and again and again non-stop. In my head, I was screaming "OH MY GOD!! PLEASE!!"

Nurse came back in and after consulting my gynae, decided to give me another dose of pain killers. DH told me I was in so much pain until cold sweats started running down my face, plus non stop tears la..

Next morning at 8am, my gynae came in to check on me. He said the pain was probably due to a deep muscle tear inside my butt and all he can do is prescribe me with mild pain killer pills as I was breastfeeding. I was unable to sit for 10days oh. Duduk for meals put have to sit miring.

I sincerely hope I never have to go through that experience again.. cuz I really felt like dying..

Being a twimum, I think Bella described the sort of pain I'm referring to perfectly in Breaking Dawn during her transformation;

 "All I wanted was to die. To never have been born. The whole of my existence did not outweigh this pain. Wasn’t worth living through it for one more heartbeat. Let me die, let me die, let me die."

Ok, I think that was a little bit too dramatic to describe the pain I had to endure... hehehehe