Mixed feelings

Finally had some 'family' time with DH & Mia. After mass at St Simon's, went for dinner at 1B. Then took Mia to Toy's 'r' us for window shopping but in the end, I terbeli oso toys; bath toy (alphabets & numbers rubber puzzles that sticks to the bathroom tiles & floats) and PLAY-DOH!!! Ok, Play-dohs are supposedly for kids aged 2+.. Mia will be 20mths old in less than 2 weeks, and will be 2 in Oct, so i decided to buy Play-doh in advance.. hmmmmmmmm actually I bought them for me.. hhahaahah.. I can't help it! Mana ada Play-doh when I was small.. Last time main pakai Tanah lor.. Mud-pies were my specialty :-) Ok lah, after I'm done with the Play-doh, I'll put it away and save it for Mia.. I must admit, playing Play-doh is FUN!! Next trip, will buy a cake making kit!! Well, if u can't bake-em, u make-em!!

Adorable pieces of food stuff!!!

I bet u're like, what's with the title "mixed feelings"? 9th June would be DH's B'day cum our 3rd wedding anniversary. So I asked DH, "what do you want for your Bday?".. I was expecting new electric shaver or some other electrical/mechanical items.. But he said, I want another baby. I was "Are u kidding?".. "U're joking right?".. But nope, he was serious!

So why am I having mixed feelings about having another baby now?
1. I'm still not 'over' the morning sickness nightmare (had MS from 1.5th mth-7 th mth)
2. I'm still not 'over' the confinment nightmare (panas!! berpeluh!! sticky yuck! ithcy hair!)
3. I've got other things planned i.e. travelling, babysigns biz thingy..

it's this and a bunch more reasons..
So now I'm left confused.. It's true, it'll be fun for Mia to have somebody to play with at home.. and of course, my obgyn did advice us to 'complete' our family before I turn 35... and the clock is ticking... So now I'm seriously considering... Bingung Oh!!